“My first dog,at only 8,was diagnosed with a terminal illness that 2 vets said there was nothing to do. A small dog should live twice that. He too was a rescue. He wasnt supposed to live thru Jan 2013 & here we are April 7. I\u2019m on disability for treatment resistant depression and anxiety, so I\u2019m terrified about how I\u2019ll react and whether this will devastate me beyond repair. Very isolated so he\u2019s really been a friend and for the first time in my life learned about unconditional love. Not working,I\u2019ve spentore time with my pet than most. His belly is full of fluids and vets day trying to drain it would be expensive,temporary,require anesthesia and risk puncturing an organ. Logically I know its not my fault yet feel guilty .. Everyone\u2019s told me Ive done what I can,rescued this dog, gave him a loving life. He\u2019s not able to digest protein so he\u2019s lost muscle & nutrients..weaker and losing fur. The fluid however is increasing his weight and he looks like he\u2019s 15 months pregnant. I fear hell explode. Feel helpless ..don\u2019t know when or if to put him down or how to tell if he\u2019d suffering. Have to think he\u2019s at least uncomfortable\u2026but he\u2019s still eating, likes to go for a walk and occasionally wags his tail..so ewhat to do\u2026I will freak out anyway\u2026can\u2019t imahine taking him to be killed. OR putting him in a trash bag to be cremated
\n.waking up and finding him listless. Told putting him to sleep \u2014 really murder\u2014is an act of love..yet my existing in misery in physical and emotional doesn\u2019t deserve the same as a canine. Go figure. <\/strong><\/em>JS”<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n
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